Me! Why?

We had church tonight, and it was awesome! The team did great, tech, video, music. It goes by so fast. when i am on stage i try to slow myself down and try to soak it in. Why? Why me? you chose me to do something so awesome God. Lead your people in worship. I am but a screwed up individual but redeemed and qualified by his hands. I have always known that i am nothing without God. I am so thankful that he chose me and the people that i serve with. From back stage, on stage, sound booth, lobby, leaders, volunteers it is such a privilege. I don't know why me but i receive the responsibility, the call, for there is nothing greater than bringing hope to the hopeless, to warm their hearts with song, and to lead people into his presence. I don't know if you have ever questioned what you are doing or if you have what it takes to make a difference for God but remember "God does not call the qualified, he qualifies the called, and we are all called to make a difference for his kingdom". Anyways it was a great night. two services down, 4 more tomorrow. Then Super Bowl! Yey! Have a good night guys. God bless you.

Leave A Legacy

Dream Date!

Tonight i had the night of nights. I have always dreamed of having date nights with my Princess and the night came. Our first date, and like most 1st dates it did not come out as planned. Prince Andres(my son) had a play day with his friend which was perfect for me to take my daughter to the Bodies exhibition in Ft Lauderdale. I did not tell her where we were going, so she was fidgeting with suspense so i started to mess with her telling her we were going to feed random homeless people off of Riverfront but inside i was stirring with excitement because i had the chance to be Hero. As we got to Riverfront she started to explode with excitement because she can see all the signs to the Bodies exhibition. Hero! was I! we get to the desk where we buy tickets. "Two please?" "I'm sorry sir, we are closed for a private function". My heart dropped. They were closed to the public for a private function. Not so Hero! I was bummed. but Kayla was still excited because i came up with the unexpected.

Kayla thanked me and said we will come back, and next time i can get dressed up and bring my notepad Papi". We proceeded to have Pizza and Icecream next to the river. She stayed clutched to my arms all night, with her head on my shoulders, thanking me over again for bringing her. I was hoping to be her hero, but she ended up being mine. Rewarding me with the privilege to walk the streets of Riverfront ft lauderdale with a Princess. For two hours it was our world as we sat next to the river and watched the yachts come in and out. My night ended with me coming home picking my son up from his play day. He sat in my lap, said "I love you papi", and then fell asleep.

May this be the 1st of many dream dates with my Princess Kayla. I am blessed!

blank canvas

i want to tell you something but i don't know where to start. i wish i can show you the gap in my heart, and that you can tell me when it will be filled. Notice i did not say if it could get filled or how it can, just when? I know that God has a plan for me but i have waited eagerly for him to unravel certain things and i find myself back at the drawing board so many times. "R U happy"? i have been asked this question twice in the last two weeks from two different people, and it has hit me like a ton of bricks.

Can i tell you that in the last 3 1/2 yrs i feel like i have been living a dream, sometimes a bad dream. i feel like i am going to wake up, and just be back home. i feel that i have been in a temporary life. it all feels so unfamiliar sometimes. crazy. huh! I guess cuz my heart really has not been at peace regarding some things. I guess i started another chapter when i should of started a new book.

There is no point to this post rather to be an honest man and tell you how there is a blank canvas in front of me, and all the colors at my disposal. I just don't know what to paint.