My Mom

Please let me take a minute to boast about my mom. How awesome she is. I can see through her eyes her trying to feel my pain, heal my wounds, trying to make my world a little better

ThAnku Mom. For all u do.
I Love you

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Fresh Air

Do you know those little Carnivals that setup in random areas of town,usually Catholic churches? My kids always ask me "Papi can we go?" and usually my answer is No, because of being tired or lack of time etc... Well i was all of the above but I decided to be spontaneous and we went. I must tell you that the moment i walked unto the fair grounds there was a sense of freshness that permeated through me. The cool air of the night. The smell of the hay that covered the floor. The sweet aroma of all the various types of your delicious Carnival food. A sense of gratitude overcame me and i was going to soak up every second of it with my beautiful children to my side. It looked like it was going to rain all night, but the rain held and we had a wonderful night.

I encourage you to look for those moments, the ones that seem like time stops. You just never know where you will find some FRESH AIR.

The Call....

I can't escape, i can't give it away, it haunts me, it prods at me, it keeps me awake. It.... the Call. The desire to touch someones life in some way, through laughter, a hug, a handshake, through prayer, someway, somehow. I can't tell you how many times I have thought, "No more", "Not today", " i have nothing to offer.

But,
What about the Couple at the brink of divorce, what about the single mom just diagnosed with Cancer. What about the 20 something that sees no purpose for there very existence.
The Call beckons me to Stand, to shout beyond the noise of pain, of loneliness, of depression, of fear, of insecurity, and let God's almighty presence permeate through me unto the Hurting, the Angry, the Lonely, the Tired. I rest in God's Promise that if i will unselfishly Pour Out, he will abundantly Pour In.




"With Everything,With Everything I will shout for your Glory"......

"I Know, I Know"

After 11 yrs I can tell the difference between all of the emotions my Daughter Kayla displays, especially when she Cries.

I know her selfish Cry
I know her mad Cry
I know her frustrated Cry
I know her nervous Cry
I know her "my tooth is hurting" Cry

but the one that truly effects me is "my heart is hurting papi" Cry. That is the one that i have to turn my face so she can't see me battling my own tears, so that i can be strong for her. My daughter is a very strong girl and struggles to let people see any weakness in her but it's this Cry where she tells you "i need you, I am broken", and "i need rescuing".

Yesterday she found out that my parents will be putting to sleep next week a family dog because of age and sickness. She turned and looked at me, and i saw her eyes so big as if i can look right through them, down to her heart and see the cut that the news had made. She buried her head into my chest and i turned my head so she would not see my own weakness. I didn't say much, i just said "I know, I know, I know baby". Her refuge was in my arms and daddy's words slowly but surely wiped each tear off one by one.

I am pretty sure that God hurts when we hurt. If we listen carefully we can probably here him saying "I know, I know"... Refuge can be sought in his arms and his healing word.

Hold on or Let Go???

Have you ever played tug of war with God? Have you ever had some situation that you have wanted but God clearly says not now or not this?

I have found myself there one too many times and gotten mad over it. Why God? What are you doing? But God has never failed to teach me knew things, to supply not only my needs but beyond my expectations. Beyond my expectations?? Maybe I'm not expecting? Maybe I am forgetting about how awesome his plan and blessings are...

Have you stop expecting something great to happen? So much that you try your very best to hold on to what you want because you are not trusting that God's plan is greater, or more than enough?

Think About it... Expect nothing but mountains to be moved when its in God's hands.